The Champion’s Blog (You already know who dis is)

What does guilt mean to you? Is it the feeling you get when you did something that you knew was wrong? To me guilt is the feeling of knowing what you did or are doing is untrue to your beliefs. If something you did makes you feel regretful in a sort of negative way, that feeling is probably guilt. Guilt can influence your actions. For example if you did something that made you feel really guilty after, this feeling of guilt may sway you to not doing that action again. It can also influence you in your doings, lets say you are doing something and as you are doing it you feel guilty, this may cause you to stop what you are doing because of that feeling of guilt.

When I was younger I decided to steal some candy at Safeway. Little did I know, my mom was watching me the whole time. It was the worst feeling ever for me when I got caught. She decided she would let me go home with the candy without me even knowing I had been caught. Even if she hadn’t seen me take it she had to have known I was up to something. My body was shaking, I was saying odd things, my face was red. It was a horrible feeling to know that I had just stolen something right in front of my mom, but even besides the fact that it was in front of my mom I just felt bad that I had stolen anything. I knew my mom was going to find out regardless of weather she saw me or not because I knew my guilt would take over my body and I would force myself to tell her hat I had done.

When we got home I ran up to my room and started crying in my bed. I heard the footsteps of my mom coming up the stairs, I was panicking, the guilt was just killing me, she heard me crying and said Emmett what’s wrong. I busted into the hallway, crying and screaming and I hugged my mom and said I stole something at Safeway. It was a horrible thing to have to tell her. She made me come into her room and talk to me. She knew I didn’t feel good about what I had done so she was fairly nice to me about the whole situation. After a while of my mom questioning me about why I did it and everything, my guilt slowly started to go away with every fact I told my mom. After everything was done I asked my mom if it was ok if we could go back to the store so I could put the candy back because that was the only way I felt my guilt would all be gone. I was very disappointed in myself but my mom seemed very proud of me and she told me she was because I had lived up to the fact that I stole the candy she was proud with the fact that my guilt took over and wouldn’t let me keep going on with it. When I brought the candy back to the store my guilt reached the empty level.

It is good to know now how I would feel to steal something. I know now I wouldn’t be able to do it again because of that awful feeling of guilt that overwhelms me. This was an extremely positive outcome. It is just so good to know that my guilt will not aloud me to do another thing like this.

Last year I was with a couple friends and they were saying really harsh things to this younger geeky looking kid. Even though I wasn’t joining in on this act of bullying, all it took was the fact that I was with these people that were just unleashing disses about this kid’s rolly backpack and kicking it around while also throwing stuff at the non-deserving kid. The guilt just ran through my body and there was no way I could have just sat and watched. I had enough and I stepped in and told them to leave him alone. I knew my friends were going to flip me crap about me being “soft” or something but it was worth it to get that guilt out of my mind and body. 

This just goes to show how much guilt can positively affect my doings. If I had not had that feeling of guilt in both events I stated, I might have contributed to bullying that kid or I might now be stealing people’s iPods with no remorse. The feeling of guilt may not feel good at the time but you can channel that negative feeling into a positive feeling, knowing that you are doing the right thing, and knowing that you don’t like to put yourself into situations that may leave you feeling guilty